is 4.55am and i couldnt zzz.. was tossing and turinng, finally decided to log online to blog~ wasnt very happy lately for reasons tt will remind undisclose.. feeling tad emotional lately, dunno it is becoz of mid twenty crisis or wat.. feels that life is so meaningless at certain pt of time. perhaps is something most pple will go thru when they embarked on the next phase of life. read a phase somewhere and still trying to absorb it:
" If god brings you to it, he will bring you thru it"
borned on the 23rd of July, my zodiac sign can be either cancer or leo. most of my frds who knows me would agree that i am more of a cancerian. i am one who reads horoscope and most of the time i do believe to a certain extend.. esp the characteristics of a typical cancerian, which though i hate to admit, i am one.
It is a water sign, so Cancerian people are emotionally intense and deeper than they appear on the surface, while quite sensitive and understanding once you get through that tough exterior. did i ever mention that i can cry like noone's biz? even it is a slight hurt, tears will juz flood my eyes and before i knew it, it will juz flow like a river.. juz like tt time tt horrifying incident w tt customer, i juz tear much as i hated to.. at times i felt so embarrassed when others see me crying but i couldnt care less, guess crying is the only way for me to release my emotional. perhaps to start of with, i am nt a strong person. juz like a crab, when it senses danger, felt hurt or threatened, it will juz retreat back to it shell. the need for security and protection is very strong. thus perhaps tt the reason why unkind words will be said when i felt hurt or angry. at times i can be sarcastic and mean but i dun mean to. if i ever did offend anyone, pls rem tt i am a person who tink with the heart and not the mind. i juz snap coz i want the opp party to feel equally bad for hurting me. wat a bitch i am right. but hey noone is perfect and i am not an angel ok..
other traits of cancerian includes vulerable, sensitive, moody, temperamental, defensive, reserved, worrier, imaginative, intuitive, cautious, sympathetic and pessimistic.
yup i admit i m all of the above.. if i have an autograph book, i bet all these descriptions of me can be found inside the book. actually being pessimistic is good, coz if things didnt turn out well, u have already expected it, if it turns out well, is a bonus~ being cautious is good too,dun trust ppl easily, always feel that pple will let me down (worrier mah), so is necessary to be cautious to protect myself from hurt.
hmm.. guess ppl will have difficulties understanding and knowing me ah, seems to be living in a world of my own haha.. but hey i m nt a self center person ok. rem someone once told me, noone can fully understand another person whole heartedly, this is something which i agreed fully~ pple are constantly changing juz like the world is always changing
of coz there are other positive traits of cancerians,shall discuss that next time.
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guess is time to zzz.. hasnt been zzz much lately..
time now is 6.10am
Posted at 06:11 am by flogal
